Tuesday, October 13, 2020

Zev Blog 6 - Expectations

Being a teenager can be tough. There is a broad spectrum that is balanced between the ideas of needing to work hard in school and the public eye looking down on you like a rowdy teenager that disregards rules. School has developed into an exception of the world's views, as we are expected to work hard and act maturely.  Lately, those expectations have come with pressure that I am struggling to deal with. There is an expectation of me from teachers and parents that I put effort into all of my work and turn everything in on time. For now I am keeping up, but this year is a bit different from others. Normal assignments that I would normally have no issues with feel as if they have a magnifying stress counter tag attached to them and I'm sure why. For the first time in a long time, I feel like I'm drowning in school. Looking at a computer screen over 8 hours a day surely isn't helping, but I just feel dumb. I am zoning out in class, and have a hard time focusing on work and have no idea where this came from. I am nervous that I am not living up to the expectations of those around me. I tried to take breaks in between schoolwork, but it feels like nothing is working. I've never struggled with issues like this in the past, and am scared of falling behind. I am reaching a point that I am nervous about going to sleep every night thinking about assignments I may have missed or not done well. Maybe it is a lack of other things to focus on?  Is anyone experiencing similar feelings this year? 




1 comment:

  1. Hi, you're not the only one, I completely get it. For me it's so hard to stay focused on zoom because I'm not actually there, also expectations from others make me stress so much. Also, you're not dumb at all, I've only known you for a few months and you are anything but dumb:)

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